it's been 2 weeks into the new semester and my life has fallen back into that daily routine of a student's life...
nothing much to talk about basically except to say that things are going on rather slowly; actually time moved pretty rapidly, it's just that the things around me ain't keeping up with time...
i was in a horrible mood the past weekend. tons of assignments to be rushed through and yet i didn't wanna move a finger. ok, i'm just lazy.
anyway, thought bout some stuff... these things actually do bother me at times (more than i'd like) but i usually dismiss them without much fuss.
i have been thinking bout how i'm already 22 and yet haven't really achieved anything significant as a person. i'm not talking bout studies or anything like that. i mean doing stuff that makes a difference in ppl's lives. things that make ppl look at me in a different light. honestly i'm quite tired of being looked at as the 'rebellious kid' (although i admit at times i kinda liked that tag)... guess things really do change with time huh?
i looked back at what i have done, what i am doing... and i realized, throughout the years, i've really just been cruising down a path that is already there. and i dun want to do that!
i've been told by a friend that it doesn't matter which road you choose to travel in life, just as long as you leave your footprints behind. i guess that is good enough. but deep down, i dun wanna travel where everyone has been... i wanna lay down a new path for others to travel. i dun wanna just leave my footprint to be washed away in the sands of time.
the sad part? i dun think i can change anything right now... following the path laid down in front of me is hard enough without going astray. keeping up with time, with expectations... everything is so freaking hard. just trying to be who i am is already proving to be a strenuous effort.
i guess doing what i want to do and doing what i have to do is two totally different worlds huh?
ermm... i've gtg.. blogging from uniten's library actually... hopefully this entry will have a part 2 soon (that's if i dun lose my train of thoughts)...
ps: i dunno if i made any sense in what i just wrote but it is basically what i have in my brains right now - unfiltered.
nothing much to talk about basically except to say that things are going on rather slowly; actually time moved pretty rapidly, it's just that the things around me ain't keeping up with time...
i was in a horrible mood the past weekend. tons of assignments to be rushed through and yet i didn't wanna move a finger. ok, i'm just lazy.
anyway, thought bout some stuff... these things actually do bother me at times (more than i'd like) but i usually dismiss them without much fuss.
i have been thinking bout how i'm already 22 and yet haven't really achieved anything significant as a person. i'm not talking bout studies or anything like that. i mean doing stuff that makes a difference in ppl's lives. things that make ppl look at me in a different light. honestly i'm quite tired of being looked at as the 'rebellious kid' (although i admit at times i kinda liked that tag)... guess things really do change with time huh?
i looked back at what i have done, what i am doing... and i realized, throughout the years, i've really just been cruising down a path that is already there. and i dun want to do that!
i've been told by a friend that it doesn't matter which road you choose to travel in life, just as long as you leave your footprints behind. i guess that is good enough. but deep down, i dun wanna travel where everyone has been... i wanna lay down a new path for others to travel. i dun wanna just leave my footprint to be washed away in the sands of time.
the sad part? i dun think i can change anything right now... following the path laid down in front of me is hard enough without going astray. keeping up with time, with expectations... everything is so freaking hard. just trying to be who i am is already proving to be a strenuous effort.
i guess doing what i want to do and doing what i have to do is two totally different worlds huh?
ermm... i've gtg.. blogging from uniten's library actually... hopefully this entry will have a part 2 soon (that's if i dun lose my train of thoughts)...
ps: i dunno if i made any sense in what i just wrote but it is basically what i have in my brains right now - unfiltered.
1 comment:
nothing much, just my two cents worth of thoughts.
I think we all can make differences and left our footprints permanent even in our daily life. yes, we are not einstein nor newton, but i am sure, the next person you help, or the next chap you advise, will surely feel the difference in his/her life.
Just so you know...we all do pass through our path of life..but just once. I heard something like this back in VI....we all pass through this path all but once, and it's up to us how we choose to leave our marks. I believe we can make a difference even with our actions in our daily life. Don't just give up and say " oh well, i can't change anything!"
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